Friday1.17pm


i just don't understand why i have to be like this.hang out with shabby really make me forget abit. mum was worried about me. and i know that, shes been telling me to eat well all the time and whenever i get myself ready for school, she always told me this "jangan lupe makan kat skolah,nanti kau sakit macam mane?" hahaha i just smile at her. i don't know why these days I've been so damn hungry but when i ate something that I've been craving for, i didn't eat it finish or should i say i just took a bite of it and thats is! I'm full! mum knows i was heartbroken. but she didn't say anything, hahah she just ask me to eat well and take good care of myself.i guess I'm older enough to choose which direction i really wanted.and i don't know why I've been sleeping so damn early these past few days. usually around 4am or 5am i will get myself to bed but for now i don't know, macam penat sangat! hahaha and when i rest in my bed, i will surely sleep until morning.oh and i felt so damn guilty after what tinesh told me yesterday night.about your friend, i am really sorry. i didn't mean to hurt you friend feelings. and because of me they two fight. really really sorry. i will try to talk to your friend when we meet up at school okay :)

for now I'm more worried about manuela, shes been so stress and fuckup after she broke up with that malaysia guy. miss ruhaizah called me this morning and i was shocked after what she told me. i didn't know that manuela could ever do that to herself.shes weak, she put too high hopes on that Malaysia guy, hmm i know this is not only the problem that has been wondering her and make her stress like this.theres more, i hope you don't do stupid stuffs or even worst commit suicide! that is the wrong decision to make you moved on.so please, if you're reading this. me and others are trying our best to make you happy all the time.think positive thoughts. don't make yourself so cold.i understand you well because for now you're in the same condition as mine.i hope you will come on monday lesson. i love you and take care .