Sunday9.41pm


A frustrating friendship is causing you to wonder what you ever saw in this person. People change over time, and unfortunately they don't always grow in the same direction. Accept who this person is becoming, but don't keep them in your life if they make you feel bad or bring out your insecurities. Friendships are elective relationships, they do not always have to be lifelong commitments. There is nothing wrong with moving on so you both can be happy.

my test is tomorrow. omg

ok so far for this three days of holiday, i manage to learn the java well. alhamdulilah.
i was quit nervous for the test tomorrow. i just scared that this test might be more hard than the previous one.

Saturday11.51pm

i am so tired today,its Saturday night and I'm at home studying for my Monday test hmmm.i don't know why I'm so scared to take the test, tinesh been asking me to be strong -.- hahaha thanks for the advice anyway. friends were out having fun, watching soccer at friends house, hang out and you know doing fun stuffs together with friends.
as for me at home doing my own stuffs.lucky theres mirah to actually came my house accompany me while parents not at home.ceh konon baby sitter aku lah ni mirah hahaha

i heard some bad news from kaya.bowen secondary is the worst school ever.

Saturday6.45pm
I'm not the happy ain today. hmmm


my mum went to Malacca today with dad and mahdi. kinda miss them haiya. called her just now.talk for awhile.she cooked for us mee goreng before she went oout she knows we will be starving and craving for her mee goreng heheh thanks mum ily!.

my test. so far I've been only concentrate on my java script. not the css or html. haizz.i hope i can pass this time..

i think i wanna start playing soccer back, should i?or not? hmmmmm.

Saturday6.48pm
mee goreng, mutton chop and ice cream.

no wonder i feel like vomiting

saturday6.47pm
the feeling of vomit. urgggh

Friday2.12pm

many things i need to memorise and understand them before the test. java script,css,html and some simples codes like numbers,buttons,check box and stuffs.
and the most important are the java script. i was hoping really really hoping that these codes do get into my brain.especially the java ones.important and get high marks for that. hmmm

ive been craving mutton chop, nuggets and yes burger ramli again.

Thursday10.43pm


surprisingly dad gave me $20 for helping mahdi with his online homework.thank you dad =]
i didn't know that i get paid for that hahaha.actually its a good thing i help mahdi with all this computer thingy.teach him how to turn on and off the computer and how to go to the Internet and stuffs.and I'm glad that he know now. thanks to me ceh hahaha.hes in primary one now and i think he will learn more in school.he is a very smart boy and a fast learner too. even though i shout at him just now for not paying more attention in what I'm teaching him.hahaha.

i memorise my java script today. it was easy actually when Manuela start to teach me and help me understand more about it.and when i get back home, i start practising it by typing it on my notepad.i hope i can pass this test on Monday :(

why everyone angry with me? :(
they just don't understand me, they thought i was just playing and fooling around. haizz

Wednesday11.50pm


I've just finish helping mahdi with his homework, these primary school days are just being a bitch. when i was just primary one, i only had my homework in exercise books or worksheet. now omg! they upgrade it. mahdi had his first online homework and its fucking irritating! he didn't have to go to school for two days just because they got some online homework to be done at home.and the teacher is fucking irritating! they didn't gave us the proper instruction until i had trouble to find the password and the school id. grrr!

not only that, i think the teacher's brain dah melampau sia! nowadays their maths are fucking hard.and theres this question i kept on figuring out. what fuck they really want HAHA! and lucky i helped mahdi and got the correct answers hehe

anyway, i went to republic poly today to watch all my soccer girls had their finals vs the bowen. and bowen win 1-0...i think that goal is not counted as one.and we were supposed to have 5goals altogether .but the stupid referee thinks that was not a goal.nabeeeeey right?aku rase budak bowen bayar referee ah suroh kasi dorang menang HAHAHA ceh takla! =]
i think siglap did their best and siglap is still the winner!

wednesday9.02am


Cash Cash - Party In Your Bedroom

I've been listening this song and keep on repeating haha.

Tuesday11.41pm

i was supposed to have my cyber wellness presentations today.but but but! we cant present.cause number of people in my group didn't came -_-
what i did today,in the morning,i had my Internet fundamentals.we learn something new. something similar like doing excel and stuffs.i forgot what they named it. but it was simple at first, it will get hard as i learn more about it.
after that we had our Mr thomas lesson. let me tell you honestly,i just hate this module because it sucks and i hate maths and i hate it! yes let me repeat it, I HATE IT! hahaha.

after that we had our two hours of break.so me and some of my friends went to bedok.rena the drama queen treat me sushi and ice cream.thank you! =] hehe i think i ate alot today. after that we headed back to school and slack til 3 and get back to our lesson.today was just a normal day to me.nothing difference. i miss lam actually. hes been busy and i just have understand him.we did chat just now and i miss him alot! hehe =]

and i miss mirah too! haiya =(

Tuesday8.42am
trust me.

you're an idiot. i am so disappointed with you. come on be a man! don't worry i wont be mad at you if show up yourself. =]

Monday10.36am
zuhair had his silat competition yesterday. so i went and took some pictures. it was his first fight btw. and he won! good job brother! I'm proud of you =]

Sunday10.14pm

this monster over here in the picture, is my boyfriend and i love him aloooooot =]

i just hate my computer right now.the screen is fucking irritating. it turns blue in colour whenever i used it. hmmm its time for me to buy myself a new lappy! if only dad let me to :(

i went to cousin house yesterday for overnight. well we supposed to go to east coast but cousin was kinda lazy so me and shabby slept over her house.its been months we didn't meet.so we spent the whole night talking,laughing and talking about some stupids stuffs.i think we should do this often and spent more time together heh :)

Saturday3.25pm
23.3.2009
"This anniversary may never be the same."
cb sia
why do i still post about you when i know, its already over?

Let go of the illusion that you can be friends with someone forever. It's limiting.

Friday3.45pm

that girl over there, in the picture. shes craving for burger ramli and she want it big. hmmmm

i am so stress right now. my brain is not working at all! I'm having test on Monday.and i only knew some codings. i hate java script! grrrr.

I'm kinda pissed with some people today.they just being a bitch. please be considerate and think before you decide anything.

Thursday8.53am

my mind giving me alot of ideas today. to do this to do that. but i know i don't have the time. its like everyday i have to do the same old thing. wake up, get ready for school and go to school with an empty stomach take mrt to eunos take bus to school and study all the way until 6. get back home, bath , watch my tv and either sleep or msn with friends.


sometimes i can be very rude.

tuesday10.53pm
i love you.


why do i feel so cold, when i know he's there for me?
negative thoughts that's the problem.
in the day and in the night, this feeling kept on coming.sometimes i wonder why, why do i go with someone else when i know hes there for me?why do i love someone else when i know he's the one who care so much about me than the other one.i realise i did a very big mistake. hmmm

Tuesday8.42am

i need hot milo in the morning. but someone took all the milo packets! grrr

my hand is so itchy today that i think i wanna do something with my hair. cut it?dye it? idk.

today is fiza irritating day!
its been a few days she didnt came to school. and when she come today. she kept on saying"eh kau asal! ade kurap?!" HAHAHHA wtf fiza wtf?! biase ah minarep memang bobal gini! hahahah confirm die bingt cause i ask her to read my blog later when she get back home. and yah the way shes said with her funny cartoon loud voice.hahahha
i think fiza look pretty today =] anyway we did html again today -_- and i helped fiza cause she didnt know a thing about it!

these past few days people been asking me about syafiee, well people, IM OVER IT! I SWEAR IM OVER IIIIIIIIT!, so please stop asking me about him. because i really dont know! he's dead or not i dont know because i dont even care.
i got better things to think about than kept on thinking about him or even talk about him.

Monday8.00pm

she keep on nag and nag and nag and nag and nag.
shes mad with someone.
sabar ok ibu, i love you =]

i love you more and more each day<3

hello again!
I'm not feeling that well today. having cramps and mood swings. well not that really bad mood swings compare to last month haha.anyway i did alot of assignments today.and i was abit pissed with myself because maybe i didn't know that much and i was abit tired.lucky theres esther who helped abit and i do helped her too so we help each other =]
esther kept on disturbing me. poking me nonstop and disturbing me while i was trying to explain to her on something and when i got really pissed already, she will stop and said"ok lah sorry lah. never disturb you anymore" HAHAHAHA! esther is a very great friend.she took good care of me while im sick haha, she help me buy the drinks when we got break and accompany me to the toliet.overall I'm happy today cause i had a very great friend who takes good care of me :)

Monday9.38am

love matters will ruin your life.

gooodmorning people. today is not my day. ok everyday not my day lah. hahaha I'm having cramps right now and its hurting me alot!

esther cut her hair. but theres no difference actually hahaha.
i bet miss may still mad at me :(

ok goodbye and i will update later again.
sarang heayo islam! =]

Sunday9.58pm

today i saw alot of cicak. the big one and small one eeyerr.
brown colour,dark brown colour macam macam.

Sunday11.50am

baby sit.
the kids were sick yesterday. so i didn't do much actually.i was abit sick too. been lying on the sofa and mum do all the work. and i miss sophia. she so cute! =]

nightmare.
that dream is like so real!even when i woke up after that i feel like there are people who wanna kill me.i straight away text islam and he called me and we talked until morning heh =]

school.
i don't feel like going to school on Monday because i don't know. not because I'm lazy just that i hate Monday's lesson. and Tuesday and thursday too! grrrrr

i know I'm a bad daughter,sister,friend and a student.
these past few days, I've been showing my attitude to almost everyone around me.

firstly, last Thursday Ive said something that hurt miss may alot.and making noise and i know i was wrong so i said sorry to her before i went back home.i know she wont forgive me just like that.I'm sorry miss may i didn't mean to hurt your feelings.

secondly,sister,i know I've been angry with you and didn't respect you at all. i just hate you. i hate the way you treat mum. shes not your friend! shes you mother how can you lied to her like that?you fucking cruel.you only care about yourself.you selfish!i hate you and i hate your fucking boyfriend too.from now onwards i wont forgive you, well maybe it takes time, i don't know.we will see.i dont want to talk much about it. this is so hurting.

and lastly, I'm sorry if i hurt anyone of you and people i know. i am really really sorry. =(

Saturday10.22am

i hate you! you hurt mum again! cb cb cb fuck off fuck off fuck off! useless person in the whole wide world.

why must you lie?i hate you! worst sister ever. cb cb cb! i don't treat you like my sister anymore.i hate you!

Friday10.58pm

cough,sore throat and flu but not babi flu ah! haiyaaaaaaaaaaa! =[

this is chris, his face like irritating right? HAHAHAH!

this is us , ceh!

i don't know why he like to open his mouth big big. macam nak sepak je!

hi I'm chris hahaha muke belo

wahhh so many hearts

see nice right? HAHAHAH big and juicy

Friday7.20pm

meet chris, i know him since last year and only this year we actually went out together.haha! and the best thing is he treat me!hahah mum and shabby went out today, i was bored and lucky chris ask me out so yeah we went out.he treat me pizza. thank you very much! =] overall,he is a friendly yet irritating person.even though there was this part i abit pissed with him, he actually make me smile again. thank you chris and you're a good friend =]

i will upload more pictures later.now very lazy ahhh hmmmmm

Friday8.48am

tell me why...
why delete me and block me on the msn and don't want to admit it?stupid

napfa test
its coming soon. i cant run like how i used too, i will get tired after running for 3rounds in the school track and I'm weak! omg sepah!whats wrong with you?why so weak?i really need alot of work out and running before its too late. grrrrr!

phase test.
I'm having Internet fundamentals phase test on monday. die die must pass!

Thursday9.45am

i change my link because i want to change it.

i think i did a very stupid thing last two days ago.i cant tell why because i was too ashamed about it. hmmmm :(

anyway watermelon is the best fruit ever sia!

wednesday11.28am



I love you more every day & nothing will take that love away.weeeeehoooo! =]

Tuesday5.53pm
baby sit weeehoo.

people just don't really believe in me when i said to them i do love kids. they thought I'm the type of a girl who just hate kids.they said my face very garang! hahahah and they said "kau pergi kat budak budak,belom nak ckp hi, dorang dah melalak!" HAHAHAH cb right? i know hahaha

but i swear. that never happen to me before! hahaha i do love kids and i do work as party host[wild wild wet] where by i have to take care of the kids and playing games and stuffs.so anyway what I'm gonna show you all is some pictures that shabby took last Saturday,i had a baby sit with my mum's boss's childrens hehehe :] and i have tell you this,they very hyper man!and and i love them aloooot! weeeehoooo

my only thoughts are thoughts about you,
What can I do, love is like glue.
There's no way to Tear us a part.
There's nothing I'd rather do,Than to sit with you forever.
i Can't think of nothing better,Than to be with you.

i know what I'm doing now.i know I'm not that confuse anymore and I'm 100% sure I'm over it, yes! I'm OVER IT PEOPLE! are you happy now?

Monday4.04pm
dying because of html coding's.

I'm not a good designer!
so sad
sad
sad
sad! :(

ok i know i give up easily.so its my fault for not getting the codes.
I'm not good at all this. i swear! susah beb!
some friends just give up like that. some of them sleep while doing their websites, some talking about other stuffs and didn't do their work. as for me, i don't know. whats wrong with me.when theres some error, i simply hanging like that and cant find whats the error. hmmmm macam bodoh kan? :(

Monday10.50am
great success

i was the first person to came for the lesson today -.-
this morning saw this guy his hair like syafiee sia! HAHAHAHHAHA from the back hoho.

macam craving tom yam seeeeeeeeeeh! :(

ok bye sepah!

Sunday8.18pm
yesterday 11.45pm
zuhair had a little conversation with the mamak at changi.

zuhair: "man, got tissue?"
mamak: "tissue, dont want!"
me:"HAHAHAHHAHAHA ape sak tissue dont want!"
zuhair:"hahahha die tak paham lah"

hahah i think the mamak tired already.

anyway, happy mother's day to all the mothers in the world! =)
mak aku pose maot ah! rock on beb! HAHAHAHHA

ok bye!
i lovvvvveeee you islam! =]

Saturday11.52am
best roti john ever!

Nothing brings me down, When you're around.
When things get messed up,You lift my head up,
You opened up my eyes,You turned my lows to highs,
And that's the only way that I know how to fall.
Not gonna analyze and try to fight it
Don’t even care if it makes no sense at all
‘Cause with you I can fly.

thank you for the cookies and nasi ayam lovee<3

Thursday9.40am
ain cari pasal.


ivan's stupid ideas.
ivan: ain lets join a band, ill be the dj, our band call "girly gaga" HAHAHAH CB
ivan: eh we form a band
u sing i play guitar i find keyboard n drummer and bass guitar dan can liao dan we sch perform WAH
wow i cant believe people like my voice HAHAHAHAA! -.-

Thursday8.32am
so i slept late yesterday,but i cant believe i still can wake up in the early morning today! waaaaah syabas ain!

yesterday i watch "erlin montel", and cicakman text me and told me this "not erlin montel lah its ain montel! HAHAHHHHA" hes trying to say im fat and and chubby and like doreamon like erlin montel! hahahah taaaaaik! hahaha and he told me about my older post , the one that i post about some videos I've make myself with friends! haha omg that was like months ago! i was so slenger. and he was laughing at me and kept on saying i got bakat. hahahah see!make fun of me again! i wont delete that post no matter what because that post remind me of someone and and its a memories beb! weeeeehoooo~ :)

i felt like yesterday was just not my day, I've been so rush in everything i did yesterday. in school and at home. my mind was full with alot of things. things to do and so on..i eat well yesterday.that's a good thing for me because these few weeks i didn't eat well.like what I've told all of you before hmmm.

and and aku syg kau giler hehehehhehahahahahhohohoh weeeehoooo~ :)

wednesday11.21pm
when mr thomas teach us and miss ruhaizah didnt came to school!

this is fizah, my minarep. her voice like cartoon you know. but shes a nice girl! hahaha :)

fizah and me, which one cute? ofcourse lah me! HAHAHHAHA!

fizah nak step tengk bawah.

HAHAHA flu babi! hahahaha sial

joshua,my baby my everything! aiseyman!

HAHAHA ni konon muke step minarep ah. hahahaha fizah muke mak mak sia hahahaha omg.

i know my pimple so big..hmmm

smiiiiiile youre on candid camera! :)