Wednesday12.19pm



i have to admit,I'm a very bad daughter, i cant make my mum happy.
yesterday was the worst day ever.we had a very deep conversations with her and she was like telling me how big am i and i think i should change myself to be more an 18 years old teenagers.its not about my attitude or what. its about how my dress up and stuffs. people wont understand what the fuck I'm talking about. i cant even explain it well enough.i was shocked,upset and i don't know what to do next.and i did something stupid.bodoooh punye keje. after that all happen i was like telling myself, its time for me to change everything.forget all the things i used to do. i want to quit my job,delete my msn,facebook,friendster,myspace,blog and even forget my someone special who always there for me.but when i think again,fuck lah I'm being unfair to myself and every single one of you..mirah were there for me when i was crying and i need someone to be there for me for just a minute.she consoled me and trying to make me happy. i thanked her for that. i love her so much , shes the only knows how it feels like right now.and shes even want to April fools me -__- hahaha and i thank god for having mirah here with me. without her i don't know what other stupid stuffs i will do.
my exam result is today, I'm scared to open my ite portal just to see the result. i have this feeling of failing every exam i had hmm negative thoughts.what am i supposed to do ? hmmmm