Thursday1.08pm

lets do something different today ain.
i will be staying at home the whole damn day today.alone at home doing what i used to do when I'm alone. i quit my telemarketing job btw. cause I'm not good in doing that kinda job and when I'm in this condition i don't think i have the mood to work. so anyway, mum and others went out. i didn't follow cause i don't feel like going out and meeting friends and stuffs.yesterday went to courts and bought myself a new earpiece and went to ikea bought new bed sheet for my own self.i was happy for a moment because i get to buy something that is finally useful cause most of the time i will like wasting my money or mum's and bought something just not that useful.

so anyway i cooked my own food today. beef steak. i was happily cooking and when it was all done and just to get ready to eat, i realise that I'm not that hungry and i don't feel like eating! i cook but i don't feel like eating! macam bodoh sak aku.so i put the steak at side and get myself a lemon tea.

oh god! i need my happy moments back.
i need someone that can atleast understand how i feel right now.