Thursday8.01am
yesterday was a sad day for me. i cried badly
I've been lost.really really lost.
i think too much. i got so much in my mind right now..i got alot of things to say.
but i really dont know how to explain to him.how much i really need him.i was stuck ed.my mind was blank at that time.i cant think of any words to actually tell him how i felt.i dont care about others out there. he said they deserve it but to me its nothing.i cant have them if i know what i want is just you.i cant help it i never felt any lost hope about you being missing for quite a long time.cause i know deep down in your heart you still love me and i trust you alot.even though he didn't actually say "i love you" for quit a long time
i know sometimes i would just be so depressed of him not being there for me but i try to understand him no matter what.
he may think that i dont understand him.but what am i supposed to do? =(

i hope you read this.i wont be online for a few days cause i dont feel like talking to anyone. haizz

i realise that people out there is having a bigger problems then me.
all they can do was just pray and hope for the best.