Wednesday1.56pm

I'm the giant.cant you see??????????????. -.-

dragging myself at home doing nothing.
since school starting soon. i need to get myself ready.
new uniforms,new books and more.
this time i really need to be attentive in class.
i need to get at least 3 points for my GPA.insyallah
i need to show good example to others ceh since im the class leader HAHA! not to forget my b1 also =)

Ive been thinking alot lately.
about life.about him and about people all around me.
my life is totally dull right now even though people may think I'm still the happy one.
i talked alot doesn't mean im happy you know.

Wednesday12.09pm

school starting soon.
new year new beginning ceh.

not working today.wanna meet mirah but that girl kena "berak berak " haha
oh ya sorry girls for not coming to the chalet thingy. im working and parents dont let me go due to some reasons.
its been months i didnt play soccer seh! haiya miss man.i dont know where i put my soccer boots also. hmmm

tuesday8.17pm

today is my last day working with ZAMIR! =(
well goodbye my dear friend.
sorry for all this while kept bullying you all the time hehe
will be missing you ceh! haha.
anyway photos will be upload.
worked as foam pit today with zamir.
he is funny,
always sang his stupid song
"ku ngakui tubuh ku blah blah blah....." hahah
will be meeting him again on the 5jan. the stuff party ahha oh ya! wan ask me to go with him haha haiyaa. so malu man somemore ill be dressing up HAHA.

Monday2.54pm

just finish doing habibie's blog.my mum so cute HAHA =D

anyway what mirah said today just make me really open my mind and think.
maybe she was right. he don't make any effort. so why do i care so much.
i guess i have to move on.after all he left [i guess] idk im confuse. you were like MIA. i cant say anything now unless you tell me the truth.keep on msging the same thing but still you dont really open your mind and think about me at all.
you were busy with your stuff.and forget about me?im all alone. like no life. you dont even care.im weak.i cried almost everyday. you care? i dont think so.if you do.you will ask me why i like this right? hmmm maybe im in the wrong too. i hurt you?well im sorry then.i want to be with you. share my everything with you.but you were like haizz.you were my only one.i dont go and date other guys cause i know you wont like it.i want you to be happy.i do everything to make you happy even though sometimes we do fight.but still you never think of that.keep on thinking when can i meet you and bake for you the chocolate cake you wanted.but after all this im too weak to think or even make one.

monday11.29am

Saturday10.03pm

today working was fucking suck.


and i know lam was upset with me due to some reasons hmm im sorry.
maybe i should tell what really happen to me now.if only you wanna know.
i cried yesterday.haizz i know it sucks alot.

something wrong with my left eye. =(

tomorrow will be working with jr.
insyallah tkde pape yang buat aku slalu kene marah. amin

Saturday9.27am

Regulations of this quiz is:- People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by them- Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.- These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.- Continue this game by sending it to other people.
Tagged by: DEMI

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
; i want my family to be happy , i want to spent time with him , i want to eat alot of sushi k dah =D

Q: Have you ever think negative things about the person you love but in the end it turn out to be the other way round?
; yes lah yes.

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
; yeah

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
; insyallah/.

Q: Do you belief in Love?
; yep.

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
; as long as he love me I'll wait =)

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
; err good for him lor.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
; i had alot of problems

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
; HAHAHA yeeeeeaaaaaaah!

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
; nahh

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
; my family and lam.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
; yeah

Q: Are you happy with your life?
; syukur je lah.

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
; not really.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
; friendly and err.

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
; yeaaaa.

Q: What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
; errr.

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
; hmmm just moveon and forget about him.

people that SHOULD do this quiz ;
(1)MIRAH
(2)MANUELA
(3)IVAN
(4)NADYA
(5)anybody

friday11.33pm



i somehow hate today
i keep on thinking about what i did and what they said about me.
i was dumb for asking you that.
i know im stupid. stupid stupid stupid!
no one will understand me. =(

thursday10.28pm
something just not right.
my feelings change. i dont have that feeling anymore.
everything i said was a lie really....

Thursday9.09pm

working with zamir was fun that guy full of shit hahaha.
asking me alot of qns.seriously he is funny even though he never do anything funny he still looked funny.i laugh all the way sia.the way he talked and the reactions wahlauwei so funny.he remind me of razdee.hahaha and got this part when we two were sitting together HAHA we were talking then suddenly the music start without pushing the button "play"
haha we were like "errr zamir! kau buat ape sia! asl ade lagu?!!" hahaha
today start early due to public holidays.and yes we still have the same problems like some people dont really understand what the fuck is "do not run" haiyerr and got this part group of china girls knn so stupid sia. kept shouting "wooooo wooooo wooo!!!!" WTF! you think what clubbing ah? andyeah sliding here and there haizz.

every time i worked as foam pit my hand always injured sia =(
and let me tell you people the soap we used, nabey make my skin so dry sia! hahaha.

anyway merry xmas everyone! =D

wednesday9.05pm



four days straight i will be working, two days coverup rohaizad another two more days will be my own working days haiyer.
i just dont understand they said that there were too many manpower but still they need me to cover up someone.
i was sad due to mirah's problem .she need jobs man! i try to find if theres any space for her at my workplace but when i ask them " too manpower lah" haiz

tuesday9.56am

k besok aku pergi bola kay kay kay!

my hair ! ommmmmmmmmmmmmmg

now its time for me and my family to moved to a smaller house. cause sis hajar getting married soon [ i guess] haha and due to some reasons hmmm . anyway i just came back from work. demi last minit told me i need to work on thursday and friday to cover up rohaizad hmm get well soon lah boyboy!

i really need to work out go to gym or what seriously im getting fatter and fatter darker and darker haiya.tomorrow i got soccer training.. i hope im not that lazy to wake up in the morning ..

ate spaghetti [ idont know the correct spelling HAHA ]
sister cooked this meat balls. and when i ate it haiyer half way cooked sia not nice not nice. but i didnt complain cause she cooked for me already what so makan aje lah and half of it i put at the side and finished all my spaghetti heh.
todays is fazil birthhhhhhhhhhhhhhday!
happy bday yer budak! =D

shabby: "eh kite kasi fazil bday cake ah."
ain: "hahahhah" [ i laugh only cause shabby was like so fucking sarcastic]
shabby: "kite kasi kau cake tapi shape taik HAHA " -_-
fazil: "kurang ajar sia kau! haha"
sis hajar : eh cepat cepat sing bday song! [ holding one plate of donuts]
ain: " yay yay cake taik cake taik!"

Monday12.06pm

woke up in the morning just for the sick of getting my mc.
saw azima and i don't think she saw me.ask shabby if today got soccer or not.she said yes haiya if i know i go seh hmmm.

anyway today mahdi told me something very weird for a six years old boy. really
okok he said he had a dream,and inside the dream got naked girls
mahdi: "kak ain! mahdi mimpi something tau!" [macam excited gitu nak blg aku ]
ain: "ape ape?!" [ aku pon macam excited lah kan]
mahdi: "mahdi mimpi kan mahdi jalan jalan abeh nampk pompn bogel"
ain: [ seriously i was shock! when he said "bogel" ]
ain" "huh?! kau biar betol?!!!!!" =D
mahdi: "aah! abeh mahdi macam eeeeeee! dalam mimpi tu "
ain": huh?! hahahha abeh feeling ah?"
mahdi: "aah hahahhahaha!"
hahahahah omg mahdi , wet dreams ah wet dream haha!

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all, along so why can't you see...

sunday10.45pm

im hungry. i wanna eat sweet sour fish!
im sad. cause you didnt called me yesturday.
im happy. cause someone bought for me two t-shirts.
and i miss mirah sumpah!

buhbye.

Sunday10.30pm



bowling is the game that im so suck at it.
but thanks to busu and pak busu for blaja me play bowling haha

sunday10.14pm

hey hey hello!
welcome back ayeen!
sleep over at nenek house was fun but yes i was sick and i didnt go to work today =(
so i will need to get my fucking mc by tomorrow haiya so leceh.

i get to eat my sotong masak hitam! yessa! thanks nenek =D

saturday1.54pm

i miss those days when we play the "chekok chekok chekok bang bang bang , aiyoyoyoy toi toi toi, uzeee teeeettt , slim shim sak?? " haha its fun serious!
nadya know kak merlin know mirah know wafda know syafiqah know shabby know baby know i know! outsiders dont know hmmm

kampong days haiya.

im hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
i wanna eat sotong masak hitam! =D

i miss lam <3

saturday12.21pm

Oh I remember you driving to my house, in the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams Think I know where you belong Think I know it's with me Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see. -taylor swift

Saturday10.14am

will be going to nenek house today! =D
she told ibu she will be cooking us alot of dishes haha
ibu and mahdi will be going in the morning .ibu ask me to follow along but im too lazy to get myself ready in the morning so i will be going in the afternoon or maybe night? hmm
actually i dont feel like going.but since im hungry and my mum didnt cooked today.go aje lah.will be sleeping there i think.
Sunday I'm working haiya starts at 1pm so must wake up early on Sunday took mrt from yew tee to paris ris. hmmm

my aunty will be there too .she said she will bringing us to bowling haiya. i wanna go but hmm idk lei. =(


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Friday3.22pm

yes im still slacking at home. supposed to meet demi and others today wanna watch twilight meet 2pm at white sand but sadly i sleep till 2.30pm hmm and when im woke up i dont feel like meeting anyone.hmm anyway i did said to her i will not be going so yeah she understand me.
ate alot today. fish with rice, cheesecake with chocolate ice cream , nasi lemak and more.
chatting with kaya today shes saying tomorrw futsal cancle due to some reason hmm.ok fine so i will be slacking at home again?
i wanna buy new plain tshirts but im fucking broke! =(
mama called me yesterday ask hows my life and stuffs told her im working now.and shes happy.

school will start soon. nabey i haven't even start on my new projects haizz.
congrats to shabby for passing all her subjects =D
you said you can know how i feel so now tell me what the fuck am i feeling right now?
* i wanna go Singapore vs Vietnam at kallang stadium! grrrrr.

thursday6.41pm
i told you this is going to be a rush day for you. haizz.
you can only spent time with for like 3hours? hmm :(
this is the only day we cn meet n he spent time wif me for only 3hours?
i'm upset with you seriously..we really need to meet.
cant you just at least one whole day only spent time with me . just me not with friends please?
im not angry just sad really really sad. and i didnt tell you i was sad just now cause i think its nothing talk about.and i dont want to spoil your day and i know i need to get use to it cause i know you more to your friends. but hey you have me now in your life.am i important to you? =(
hmm
haiz i really need a hug right now

now i feel like eating sushi seh.

thursday6.19pm

thursday6.08pm


fatty fatty ain ain fat fat. hahaha i looked so fat sia OMG!
thats dougle and mirah btw.

Wednesday11.31pm




yes im teaching my mum to play that "nintendo" or "NDS" hahah!
shes so cute i know haha =D
anyway hello everyone omg i just realise that almost every post i keep saying "anyway" HAHA!
okok so yeah i've been slack at home this whole day with of course mirah darling .
we kept watching cds.
8mile,50cent show and hustle and what lah forget ready hahah

so yeah i ate alot today but still i want my nasi ayam haiyaaa =(
just hoping i can get my nasi ayam tomorrow hehe.

tuesday11.31pm

i just love the smell of vicks. haha really!
anyway hello people .im happy today cause my bestbestbest cousin mirah .sleepover my hs today yay! =D
just finishing doing her bloggie. budak baru kate kan so she dont knw anything hehe
anyway i had soccer training tomorrow morning.
i guess i will not be going cause mirah coming. if i go sapa mau layan mirah beb?


this past few days kept thinking what should i wear when im going out or even at home seh. idont know why. feel like im "selekeh girl" like tat.
always wit her boxers and shirts all the time.

hmm kaya ask me to meet her on Saturday .go play futsal with her friends haiyaa idk lah..if im not working =D i go okay kayaking!

tuesday1.30pm

Tuesday11.42am

i cant believe shabby have two dates in one day haha!
wake up in the morning saw shabby dressing herself and make up and you know which dress suit her best haha asking her where she wanna go..she say im meeting my baby love then date with my friend watch movies. HAHA
nabey how come she got date . i never sia?! haha
not fair not fair.

haha anyway im happy for her at last she out and date some guys if not she will be dragging herself at home eat sleep only like no life haha =D


yesturday mirah sms me saying maybe she will be coming my house today! YAY :)
im not going anywhere today so will be at home the whole day lucky shes coming if not my whole day will be like boring like hell man.

monday6.00pm

i want to have fun this holidays
i want to work
i want to eat doughnuts badly
i want to eat nasi ayam also
i want to watch twilight!
i want to go swimming.
i want to hug somebody!
i want new dress.
i want lam's hoddie
i want new hairband
i want new t-shirts
i want to drink coke.
i want to bake chocolate cake with my sister.
i want to meet mirah almost everyday.
i want to be loved.
i want to sing out load .
i want to dance
i want to play soccer
i want to hug my mother.
i want to have my own lap top
haiyaaaaaaaaa!

I'm craving for doughnuts now!
i want sia =(

Monday4.35pm


okok change of plan.
went to sengkang swimming pool today with shabby ibu zuhair n mahdi.
..it was my first time going there so abit blur and yeah we were lost OMG! hahah naik lrt lah..selenger betol satu satu. dont know where to stop. ibu go there for quit alot of times also can lost haha.
so yeah we drop at firmway or wtf lah name dia. then we walk to the indoor swimming pool..okok i tell you first lah kay..it was so fucking hot .really really hot day.. and guess what we reach there ready..jeng jeng jeng " every monday close" nabey! haha
ibu: " alamak ibu tak tau die tutop on Monday!" haha ain:" alamak ibu ni! hhaha" hahah cute sia my mother haha.so yeah we sit for awhile.. thinking where to go.shabby say lets go sengkang mall there haha but atlast we took taxi go home HAHA. so yeah im here now bloggie and chatting with my best best best mayat hidup kayaaaaaaaaaa! =D

i want to meet my lam tomorrow if only his not busy. but he said he was sick =(
take good care of yourself lah. rest well dear =)

Monday9.24am



this is what i ate for my breakfast today. marshmallow with biscuits i melted the marshmellow so yeah
aniway wake up early today. mum ask me go put some money at sister bank.sometimes i just dont understand my sister she worked get more then me and my mum still ask for money haizz.
mum kept asking me "pukul brape nak pergi docter??" i just keep quite HAHAHA lazy sia and no one want to acompany me seh haiya so sad. everyone busy with their own stuffs .hmmm

Sunday9.21pm

haiya im broke man. i need money $$
at last today i had my so called longgggggggg hours sleep HAHAHA.
3pm to 7pm woohoo. actually not that long lah kan?
hmm so today wake up bath .msn for awhile and then sleep till 7pm wah no life sia ain haha aniway im sick so yeah ibu ask me to rest well.
ibu ask me to go polyclinic tomorrow, lam ask me too haiya. i dont know lah :(

i got my soccer training tomorrow morning..i dont think im going. ibu dont let me go :( she ask me go see Doctor but mcm malas ah.

plans for tomorrow:
go see Doctor if only im not lazy
go bugis library return books and borrow.
go buy 3/4 jeans for myself. but im broke man haiya!

Sunday8.26am


yesterday worked was like babivsdyfsdfsoya;hsaydfsdbabi! yeah really i was sick and i dont have any energy to shout at all this people who dont follow the instruction nabey hahha
well anyway rohaizad helped me with all the shouting haha i did my part too. run here and there
today i dont really deal with kids. more to adults and young adults so its quite okay for me. but some of the young people wah sian man ask them not to sit inside the pool they still sit alamak bodoh betol.make me wanna shout at them only.
so aniway after worked mirah called me.she was at escape theme park..meet her and her mom go to kak long's boss chalet HAHA so yeah we went. eat eat took picture with doogle"boss'friends" he is seriously HOT haha! and around 9pm took taxi headed home :)

photos will upload soon!

Saturday9.36am

oh oh morning
I'm dragging myself today . worked of course haizz.
i think its time for me to go see the Doctor but seriously i no time sia and no one want to accompany me :( its like ibu busy with her baby sitting .shabbys working .sister too haizzz.
i can only ask help from mahdi which he is only err 6years old?!!! OMG. haizz haizz hidop hidop.
can anyone please accompany me to see the Doctor please please pleaseeeeeeee! :(

friday12.06am
mirah will always never fail to make me smile haha chatting with her now.
she was talking about ellen degeneres.
and shes telling me that she like this ellen "omg ni budak dah giler agaknye"
for anione who dont even know who is ellen. shes a gay.seriously gay married with a very hot woman really! hahaha mirah da gone case sia.



omg omg nurul, imissyou sia. :(