i wish i can meet you today
i wish i can hug you and will never let you go.
i wish i can cry with all your arms around me and tell you how i feel right now :'(

sunday8.12am

i lost myself.
I've been trying to understand you but seems like you're are the one making me confuse.
i know you making an effort but seems like it didnt work for me.i cant feel it really.i feel lost feel like you're gone so far.far from me.please i dont wanna loose you. true love waits yea.

its been a very hard day for me and my mum. she understands me well. i said to her. no way im gonna be with him alone in this house.will be going to bugis library for self study. anyone who need me,i will be there...

mylife is soo dark right now. seems like i have noone to be with me anymore.only mum .i love her more then anyone i know.im sad.crying thinking why everyone hurting me haiz

saturday4.29pm

everyday is so wonderful,suddenly its hard for me to breath.
all started yesterday night.
why you blaming my mother?
she did nothing wrong.it was sister's fault for coming back home so fucking late.and why you angry with me? cause i open the fucking door to let sister go in? i didnt know anything..why you shout at me and mother??.haizz
please stop shouting at me and mother.it was 3am and youre shout like an old crazy man
you make me cry infront of you.shout at you .and i know im in the wrong for shouting at you but i cant really take it.the way you treat my mother and me.cant stop crying till i cant really open my eyes.
my mum is sick.seriously sick! and she just makeup her mind to get out from this fucking house.you wanna slap her?why? she did nothing wrong! you should slap sister not her.haizz im so stress right now..i really dnt know who i want to tell this to.no one will understand me.hmmm
mother even said that she wants to kill herself if sister never said sorry to you.and now you blaming mother ? :'(
i began to believe that my life would never change.
i hate you .

friday10.34pm

friday7.02pm
went to bugis library,meet mirah i love her more then i love eating hmmm wth? oh well
shes going AUS on monday. i will miss you love. dont forget me(:

friday12.42pm

hmm i have my own savings , i do give ibu ,half of my pay $$ so now isit wrng for me to spent some of my money on skirts and other stuffs?hmm seriously i dont understand you.i didnt ask you for money .i save my own money to get my own things isit wrong?haizz.this is just so not my day,someone was supposed to meet me today but i guess his too busy again.its okay i understand you.i have other plans aniway.hmmm
holiday coming.projects keep on coming nabey right?haizz 5dec will be my last day sleeping on my wonderful bed and im goona miss all my friends and loveones.will be going to malacca for 5 or 6days.father will not be going only ibu and her frens and our frens and brother frens so yeah more teenagers will be going then adult haha!goona have some fun but sadly my bestbestcousin mirah will not be going cause shes goin AUS ala!nvm today i meet you can spent time together (:

goodbye.

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hmm i cant believe i have this kinda attitude.

friday12.00am
hmm 12am huh.
MSN,power point,yahoo and friendster. hmmm
seriously talking.am i a boring person?huh huh huh!

i wish i can meet you today haizz :(

firstly i missed my soccer match this morning vs u-13 haizz.. aniway,
in school now,using school lappy,wearing school unifroms and doing school asignments hmm its all about school yeah.this is so called not myday but i do still laugh out loud haha with manuela and others hmm "menses" are just killing me man haiyerr,
so yeah today is thursday so will be passing up my life skills projcts hmm just hoping mr kadir wont talk much about it.cause i am so fucking up with all the words that he keep on saying all the time, somemore his breath so stinks hmm okok i very bad but its true yea hmm.

Thursday12.37am
since i worked at www"wildwildwet", my skin getting darker and darker.
aniway, great success! done doing life skills projects and now waiting for esther to print it (:
just hope thats what mr kadir wanted hmm
oh well school stats 9.30am later.so yeah must wake up early(:

welcome back handsome boy!hope youre getting well as days passes by(:



wednesday9.59pm

done with mind mapping,
now think ain think!!! hmmm im stuck with my stupid lifesklls project .hmm

oh well today was my so called"lastday of presentation for dc projects"
and yeah got good grade i guess hmm mr goh was like the most lazy type teacher to me.he gives stupid commnts and questions like "how you do your projct?" - __- hello! ofcs lah power point haiz.
so yeah school satrt so fucking early .went to school do my presentaion. go break till 2pm.and i tell my break was like so fucking long hours 11am to 2pm???! hmm so me and the others went to payar lebar macdonalds (:
had miss may lesson do some asignments ,and headed home.
miss may said that im improving hehe.i did my work very fast.eventhough i do still joke around when doing my work so yeah yay for ain!(:
oh well holidays coming baby! 5dec byebye singapore hello malacca!woohoo

i dont know what the fuck is going on with my life now,just feel something bad goona happen.hmm oh well pray to god.insyallah everythings goonna be alright,

sometimes i dont understand them,you said that you want her,but then you left her and be with someone else and now shes like ..err wtf??..just feel sad for her.now shes like "im hanging and i really dont know what to do ?"

these pastfew days many people just having this kinda problems, like guys left the gf then the gf dnt understand the bf and blahblahblah..hmmm

tuesday7.09pm

he kissed me on top of my head,Causing my insides to stir.I closed my eyes and breathed he in,And then I said the words:"Idon't know how far this will go,But I do know how my heart feels...It feels something so big for you, it doesn't make sense.Something so lifting, something so real.I don't know if you're gonna believe me,But I know that I don't even care,All I care about is having you near me,Touching my face, playing with my hair.I only care about your hugs and listening to your voice.Everything about you stole my heart, like I didn't even have a choice.You're all I've ever wanted, all I've looked for, for so long.And if you think that I'm not sure about this, Well sorry , you're wrong


You give me butterflies
whenever your near
You make me smile
From ear To ear (:

Tuesday6.45pm
new blog new link new post .
well im home now.
morning was miss may lesson ask her alot of questions .such as do you think i can go poly by other course then info-com ..something like that.sometimes even she talked i dont understand.her pronouns just so weird.hmm but shes fucking smart .i mean she understand all this it stuffs so well.okok i know shes a teacher but hey! Myanmar teacher ..so its hard for me to communicate with her well not only me other students too.
hmm after that i had to go for mr goh lesson.was thinking to present again cause the last present i got "c" for it .not really that good.so yeah get ready ain! tomorrow is your day and rena too!(: just talk whatever you know!

so yeah mr goh lesson was quit okay.use yongting lappy to online my msn hehe^^ watch some YouTube video with others. watched "womanizer" video and i dont know ivan "fav" songs video haha.we had fun laugh out loud! jokes with teacher.after all the fun we had our practical .take some notes and yeah i think im improving now.make myself to understand all thanks to friends and my love ones(:

and now im craving for ramli burger :(

tuesday10.08am

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I,
I I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I lvoed I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry,

tuesday9.53am

new blog new post new tag.
hello everyone ,

Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy.Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop.You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop.You broke another mirror; you're turning into something you are not.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dryDon't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk.All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make loveThey're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed outThey're the ones who'll spit at you. You will be the one screaming out.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dryDon't leave me high, don't leave me dry

It's the best thing that you've ever had, the best thing that you've ever, ever had.It's the best thing that you've ever had; the best thing you've had has gone away.Don't leave me high, don't leave me dryDon't leave me high, don't leave me dry